My First Time #8

I don’t know if amateur (anyone who’s unskilled at something is an amateur right?) is the right word to use but I’ll stick with it.

We started off making out as usual. We always took our clothes off but never went all the way. This time I was like “Okay”. He looked at me and asked “Are you sure?” In my mind, I was like NOPE. We didn’t really know what we were doing. Well, I felt that way now that I “know” better .. So he puts it in and I was expecting all the things you hear.  Immense  pain, Blood…. I didn’t feel much pain  so I was confused and then he tried different styles and I was just handicapped. Laughs. I didn’t know what he was talking about. He goes “Turn around, let me hit it from the back”. In my mind I was like “No oh I don’t want to try anal” . So I turned around and knelt down upright and he’s like “bend now” I just didn’t know what I was doing but he enjoyed the view from the back.  There was no orgasm.  I didn’t even know you were supposed to but he pulled out and came on my butt.
What was going on in my mind? OMG THIS IS REALLY HAPPENING

Just imagine. We didn’t use a condom.  Very foolish.  I guess because we didn’t plan it. I didn’t know better. That’s how I would have carried belle. After, we lay on the bed,  talked and then ate pizza. I wouldn’t say I regret it.  We were together for 5 years so it would have happened anyway and it was done with love.